Author: Amber

  • Zephyr, My Grateful Survivor

    The Broken Stray Who Brought Me Peace

    When Zephyr first showed up on my porch, he was thin, beat up, and looked like he’d been fighting for every meal and losing half the time. The sore on the back of his neck was raw and kept reopening, no matter how carefully I treated it. At some point, he decided my porch was his safe place. He stopped wandering off, started watching me through the door, and little by little, trusted that I wasn’t going to chase him away.

    Zephyr was the reason I bought the cat house. The whole setup on my porch started because of him. He’d come by hungry and cautious, and I just couldn’t stand watching him fade a little more every day. I didn’t know anything about TNR then, or what to do with a stray who clearly needed help. Just when he started trusting me enough to stay close, that’s when I met Jennika, who taught me how to trap him and get him fixed through PALS. He was the first one I ever trapped, and I felt so guilty handing him over, even though I knew it was the right thing. They neutered him, treated the sore on his neck, and removed a twisted toenail that had started growing upward from an old injury. (They told me it might grow back normal… and it did!) I brought him home to recover in Jarod’s old room, and by the end of that week, I knew he was never going back outside again.

    While he was recovering safely behind the closed door, I bought one of those cheap mesh screens off Amazon—the kind you Velcro around a doorframe—but I stapled it instead. I could unzip it to go in and out of the room as needed, or close the door completely when tensions ran high so everyone felt safe. Zazu and Zephyr hit it off almost right away. Zuri took longer. She never attacked him, just kept her distance and hissed from across the room. Zephyr never once challenged her. He’s always been the most respectful boy, rolling onto his back whenever there’s even a hint of a standoff. He’s just happy. You can see how grateful he is. He knows he’s safe now.

    From the start, Zephyr was a snuggler. He’s always needed to be close—pressed against me, on my lap, sometimes right in my face like I might disappear if he’s not touching me. He’s been through so much in his short little year of life, and I think that’s why he clings so tight—he knows what it’s like to be alone. For the first couple of weeks, he was completely silent. Then one night, he nearly scared me half to death. His meow isn’t normal; it sounds like he’s saying “Ow!” in this long, drawn-out, whiny tone. Sometimes he even starts with “Mama!” first, like he’s calling for me to hear what he has to say. I’ve been told that’s a Siamese thing—and there is an intact male Siamese who lives across the street who could potentially be his father. Maybe that’s where he gets his flair for conversation. Once he settled in, the zoomies started. Not little bursts, either—full-blown, furniture-rattling, hallway-thundering zoomies. Zazu and Zuri just step aside and watch the show. It’s hilarious. No warning. He just screams then takes off.

    These days, Zephyr’s thriving. He’s bigger than Zazu now—long, tall, solid, with a growing little belly that swings side to side when he runs. He looks like a sleek black panther who discovered the joy of snacks. He’s also a very good helper. Every time I get food ready for the porch crew (new batch of strays that found me), he’s right there beside me, supervising. I’ll grab the plate and head for the food tub, and he trots over to inspect my work, sneaking a nibble like he’s making sure it’s good enough for everyone outside. He also takes his guard duties seriously—if someone new shows up on the porch or a delivery hits the door, he lets me know with a warning hiss.

    Inside, he’s exactly where he belongs. He and Zazu wrestle and chase each other through the house, then curl up nearby like brothers who’ve always known each other. Zuri’s still cautious, but she’s come a long way—no more hissing standoffs, just quiet coexistence (and the occasional short hiss when she’s startled). Most nights, Zephyr ends up in my lap while I’m in my recliner, stretched across me like he’s home—which, finally, he is.

    Every time I look at him, I still see that scrappy little porch cat he used to be. The memory never really leaves—it just sits quietly next to the gratitude. He hasn’t forgotten either. You can feel it in the way he presses close, in the way he looks at me before settling into my lap. Every day, he reminds me that rescue goes both ways.

  • WIP Parade: Fall & Halloween

    Fall is here, and so are my autumn and Halloween projects. This is the first in my new WIP Parade series, where I’ll share the cross-stitch pieces currently in progress. Some are barely started, some are nearly finished, but all fit perfectly with the season.

    Graveyard Biscornu

    Designer: Karen Bowen (KEB Studio Creations)

    Fabric: 14 ct Aida, hand-dyed by me

    Progress: just started — spider, web, and a few motifs stitched so far

    Notes: This is from this year’s Just CrossStitch Halloween issue. I’ve never made a biscornu before, so I thought I’d give it a try. I just started yesterday, so we’ll see how it turns out.

    UPDATE: As of November 1, 2025, here is where I am at with the biscornu. I didn’t get it done, but I got sooooo close!! Disregard the stray thread on that skull & crossbones. The thread came out of my needle and I was too lazy to try to thread it back.

    Where Did I Put My Broom

    • Designer: Modern Folk Embroidery
    • Fabric: 18 ct Aida, hand-dyed by me
    • Progress: about 98% complete — just need to finish the cauldron fill and add the frogs
    • Notes: I love Modern Folk Embroidery patterns and even have a few of his samplers. It’s so close, I don’t know why I haven’t just finished it.

    Halloween Quaker

    Designer: Lila’s Studio

    Fabric: 18 ct Aida, hand-dyed by me (I had no idea what I was doing and it came out awesome by accident)

    Progress: about 20% — witch, text, and several motifs finished

    Notes: I was never that into Halloween (yes, even with black cats in the house) until I saw Dena from Halfstitch Cross Stitch on YouTube working on this. I had to have it. Now I love pulling it out every year in October, and honestly, it takes some willpower not to work on it all year long. Holding off feels like flexing a self-control muscle — it makes Halloween stitching even sweeter.

    A Colorful Past

    Artwork by: Jane Wooster Scott

    Charted by: Michele Sayetta, Heaven & Earth Designs

    Fabric: 18 ct Aida, white

    Progress: early start — working through the big black sky

    Notes: I love this picture — the fall colors are gorgeous, and there are big blocks of color that make for great mindless stitching. I first tried this on a linen (probably 25 ct) and stitched almost the entire black sky 1×1, but it was way too floppy and miserable since I stitch in hand. I restarted on 18 ct Aida, which has become my favorite fabric. It’s affordable on Amazon, and I can dye it myself if I want. The blue dots you see are just me counting to 10 with a washable fabric pen.

    Halloween Gnome

    Designer: Soda Stitch

    Fabric: 25ct Lugana, stitched 1×1 with DMC (same piece as Hello Fall)

    Progress: About half of the border motifs left

    Gnotes: This gnome lives at the top of the same fabric as Hello Fall. I set him aside when Halloween Quaker stole the spotlight, but one of these days he’ll get finished.

    Hello Fall

    Designer: Soda Stitch

    Fabric: 25ct Lugana, stitched 1×1 with DMC

    Progress: Finished ✨

    Gnotes: I loved stitching this — the challenge of 1×1 on tiny fabric is weirdly fun. Plus, gnomes are my weakness (I’ve got several going right now). This one just screams fall and totally nudged me into the autumn mood. I really need to get it framed or fully finished… for now it’s living in a drawer in my craft room.

    Pumpkin Carriage

    Designer: OwlForest Embroidery

    Fabric: 18ct Aida, stitched with DMC

    Progress: Finished ✨

    Notes: I LOOOOVE OwlForest Embroidery patterns. I’ve got a few of their larger ones, but this one was a small, quick finish. The colors are gorgeous, and it’s got such a fairy-tale vibe. Now I just need to figure out how I want to finish it.

    Future Fall Stitching Plans

    (A peek at patterns waiting their turn in the hoop!)

    Top row (left → right):

    • Glory of Autumn — Dimensions
    • Cornucopia — Alena Koshkina
    • Hoppy Halloween — Brooke Nolan (Brooke’s Books)

    Bottom row (left → right):

    • Mini Scaredy Cats — Heaven & Earth Designs (art by Jeff Haynie)
    • Autumn — Designer Unknown
    • Halloween OwlThe World of Cross Stitching Magazine, Issue 272 (Oct 2018, freebie)

    What I Actually Worked On – Halloween/Fall 2025

    So I didn’t actually touch any of the projects in my plans… of course.

    A Witches Welcome

    Designer: Annie Craft of Dirty Annie’s

    Fabric: 18ct Aida dyed by me, stitched with DMC

    Progress: Early start – maybe 10%

    Notes: This is from the Fall 2023 Just CrossStitch magazine. I don’t know why I started it. I think I needed a break from the biscornu. But isn’t this adorable? I love it.

    Wooly stitches

    Designer: Nicoletta Farruto of Nikyscreations

    Fabric: 28ct lambs wool linen, stitched with DMC

    Progress: Early start – maybe 15%

    Notes: This is from the Autumn 2025 Just CrossStitch magazine. Yea, I know. A lot of stitching from the magazines. I just had never really sat down and looked through them with the idea of actually stitching anything out of them because I am always working on something else. I started this in September I believe. Right when fall started. This pattern is so adorable. I just had to do it. I don’t think I will stitch the pumpkins on the sides of the sheep though. We’ll see. I won’t pick it up again until next year, so who knows what I’ll do.

    The Sorceress

    Designer: Joan Elliott

    Fabric: 18ct Aida, dyed by me

    Progress: Early start – 1.15%

    Notes: Soooo, I was watching Catkin & Lillie the other day and she was working on this, and I had to have it. (I also got Mermaid’s Realm & A Winter’s Gift, all Joan Elliott, because of her. Thanks Kat. LOL) Sadly, I didn’t get far before Halloween was over. Now it’s time for me to work on winter holiday projects.

  • Zuri: My Elusive Queen

    The cautious beauty who taught me patience and trust.

    Every cat has a story, and Zuri’s is one of courage. I brought her home in April of 2021 because I thought my boy Zazu needed a friend. He was nearing a year old, and I hoped a companion would be good for him.

    When I went into the shelter cat room, there were so many precious cats and kittens. But way in the back, in a cage, was a tiny, terrified cat, huddled up with pure horror in her eyes. The staff told me animal control had picked her up along with a group of strays. At first, they thought she was feral, but later decided she wasn’t. I asked to hold her. She didn’t fight, but she shook all over and tucked her face into my arm like she was trying to calm herself down. I knew instantly: this was the one. Her shelter name was “Peach,” but she became my Zuri. They said she was two years old, though she was so small I could hardly believe it.

    I brought her home and set her up in Jarod’s room. She stayed hidden constantly, too scared to trust me. Eventually, I let Zazu in to meet her. After the usual hissing, they became inseparable. Zuri adores him, and their bond runs deep. They snuggle, bathe each other, and play together—a connection I don’t think either of them will ever share with another cat.

    Zuri has always been hard to touch. In four years, I’ve only held her a couple of times—once when she had something dangerous in her mouth and I had to trap her in the bathroom, and another when she got sick and had to go to the vet. Each time, though, when I finally caught her, she melted in my arms. She didn’t fight me; she just let me hold her as if she remembered, deep down, that she could trust me.

    Most of the time, Zuri prefers to stay at a distance. She loves her window perch behind my recliner, hidden behind the curtain, where she can watch in peace. Sometimes I sneak in a quick pet before she realizes, and then she darts away. But little by little, she has grown braver. Since Zephyr joined our home, she seems to see me as the safer option, and she’ll come closer than she used to.

    Now, with Zeus waiting to join the household, I think Zuri will be the deciding factor. She still hisses at Zephyr if he rushes her, but she doesn’t fight him—and he respects her as the boss. I’m hoping she’ll accept Zeus, maybe even mother him a little, because he’s such a baby at heart.

    Zuri is about six years old now. She may never be a cuddly lap cat, but she’s my elusive queen, my cautious, beautiful girl. I love her so much, exactly as she is.

    Thanks for reading Zuri’s story. Do you have an elusive queen (or king) in your life? I’d love to hear about them in the comments.

  • Showing Up

    My son just moved into his new place this week—he hasn’t even finished unpacking yet.

    I remember how it felt way back in the beginning when I first had a place of my own. I didn’t want my mom or dad to come see it so I could prove anything. I just wanted them to be excited for me, to come see me, to come see my home. In all the years and all the places I’ve lived, I can count on one hand the times my parents came to see me.

    So I’ve decided I won’t let my sons ever feel that emptiness. When they step into new chapters—whether it’s moving into their first apartment or making a home states away—I’ll show up. Even if it’s inconvenient. Even if it takes work. Because I know exactly what it feels like when nobody does.

  • Wondrous Dishcloth on My Needles

    So, lately, when I sit down for a few minutes—watching TV, taking a break—I’ve been working on this. The  Wondrous Dishcloth by Sew Sweet Violet.

    I really am not a fan of knitting with cotton yarn. But I love these dishcloths so much! They’re a little fiddly, but totally worth it.

    It took me a couple of wonky looking dishcloths to finally get it right.

    What are y’all’s favorite dishcloth patterns?

  • Zazu – My First Floofy Shadow

    The one who saved me.

    I had just lost my dog Nala, my whole world, only two months before. Her death shattered me, and I truly thought I’d never heal.

    Then one night, my son walked through the door, unzipped his jacket, and whispered, “Mom, do you want him?” Out peeked a tiny ball of black fluff—rescued from a thorn bush. My heart cracked wide open.

    A few days later, the vet told me he was about seven weeks. Counting backwards, that meant he could have been born on my birthday. So now, we share a birthday—another bond that makes him even more my heart.

    We named him Zazu, to keep the Lion King theme alive—Nala (my dog), Simba (my son’s cat), and now Zazu. From that first night, he curled on my chest and licked my chin like he was stitching me back together.

    Now he’s my 14-pound chonk, full of fluff and love, still my shadow, still my heart.

  • Sewing Machine Update

    Good news—my sewing machine is back in working order! 🎉

    But here comes the next problem… I’ve got just one more block left, and I’m completely out of batting. Since this is quilt-as-you-go, I sew the fabric directly onto a batting square for each block. I thought I cut enough, but apparently I can’t count. 🤦 So now I’ll have to dig around for something else to use—because I’m definitely not buying a whole bag of batting just for one block!

    And if that wasn’t enough, I almost had another mess with fabric too. After cutting everything, I was left with just one lonely strip. 😅

  • The Hard Side of TNR

    TNR—short for Trap–Neuter–Return—is a humane way to help feral and stray cats. You safely trap them, get them spayed or neutered (often vaccinated), and return them to the spot they know. It prevents endless litters and lets healthy cats live out their lives.

    This story starts with a little black street cat we called Limp. Limp had been on my radar for a while. He had a bad foot, was constantly getting into fights, and seemed to be wearing down from the constant struggle. The other cats hissed and growled at him when he tried to eat, leaving him hungry and alone more often than not. Limp recently started showing up in the mornings when my friend and neighbor Jennika (pronounced Yennika) stopped by his colony (across the street from my house) with her little bag of food and treats. She stops at several colonies in our neighborhood, spoiling the cats with food and attention while also keeping an eye out for injuries or signs they’re not feeling well.

    A couple of days ago, I was outside with my morning coffee, feeding a few strays that come to my porch for food and water, when Jennika showed up on her bicycle. I pointed him out to her, explaining that his bad foot needed to be checked and he needed to be neutered too. Jennika didn’t waste a second—she grabbed the trap we had on my porch, set it up, and before I knew it, Limp walked right in.


    Zira — My First TNR Experience

    Our shelter here participates in the TNR program. My first experience with it was with “Mama Cat,” now Zira. She was barely a year old and had already had a litter of kittens. The babies were maybe four to five months old, and the toms in the neighborhood were already trying to get to her again. There were constant fights, and every morning, she’d be at my door, trying to slip inside, desperate for safety.

    I’d feed her on the porch and shoo away any other cats that came near so she could eat in peace. She trusted me — which is why I was able to trap her — and it broke my heart to do it. Dropping her off at animal services, seeing her tiny frame in that big cage, I cried the entire time we were there and all the way home.

    A week later, they called to ask where to drop her off, and I gave them my address. She bolted the second they opened the cage, and I didn’t see her for weeks. Jennika told me she was back across the street with her colony, looking healthy and content. Just in the last few days, Zira has started coming back to my house again. She’ll get close now, but she’s not quite ready to let me pet her.


    “TNR is necessary. It works. But it’s not always easy—especially when the process is broken.”

    When the Shelter Couldn’t Take Him

    The shelter doesn’t open for intakes until 11 a.m., so Limp sat in the trap on my porch until about 10:30, with a towel over the cage to keep him calm. We called the shelter to let them know we had a cat to bring in and they told us to go ahead.

    When we arrived, animal services met us outside. She said there was an illness going around in the cat room, and they couldn’t take any cats until it was under control, which would be at least a week, maybe longer. That left us with a scared feral in a trap, out of luck at the shelter, and little chance we’d be able to catch him again.

    So, we decided to take him to PALs (Prevent A Litter). It’s not free like the shelter’s program, and they don’t return the cats — you have to pick them up, but it would be worth it to help this guy. On the drive there, we decided he needed a proper name, and there seemed to be a ‘Z’ theme happening so that’s when “Zorro” was born. He was neutered and given a rabies shot for $96. The vet checked his toe and said it looked like it had been broken at some point but healed on its own, just a little crooked. I’m glad he didn’t need surgery, but I’m sad he has a bad toe.

    On the way home, a massive thunderstorm hit. Sheets of rain made it hard to see, cars were pulling over with their hazards on, and I kept thinking about poor Zorro, stressed out in a cage in the backseat of my car.

    I brought him inside to my spare bathroom, stacking boxes against the door so my three shadows wouldn’t line up outside hissing at him. He stayed curled up in the cage most of the night, sleeping off the anesthesia, the occasional soft sound of him shifting letting me know he was still there. When he did eat, it was slow and deliberate — like he knew he should, but the lingering fog of the anesthesia made each bite take extra effort. Part of me wanted to keep him right there, safe. But I can’t take in another cat.


    Release Day

    The next morning, I made sure he had a full belly before I released him back to the streets. That would be one less thing for him to worry about for at least a few hours. Then I carried the cage outside and opened the door. He didn’t explode out like I expected. Instead, he trotted just far enough to slide under my car and then stopped, looking back at me. Maybe that tiny bathroom, with its odd smells and soft towel, had felt like the safest place he’d ever known. Maybe he was confused. Or maybe, in his own way, he was saying goodbye.

    Later, I caught him on my security camera — slow steps across the street, disappearing under a parked truck. Probably heading for one of his hidden corners where he could curl up until the heat faded.

    That was two days ago. I haven’t seen him since. I hope he comes back around like Zira did, so I can see how he’s doing — and how the other cats take to him now.


    Hard Goodbyes

    This week was hard—on him, on me, and even on my own cats. Zazu and Zephyr got into a spat, Zuri became more skittish, and my house smelled like “stranger cat” for a full day. I scrubbed, bleached, and Lysol’d the bathroom and turned all my wax burners on before things calmed down.

    TNR is necessary. It works. But it’s not always easy—especially when the process is broken. When the shelter handles it, they take the emotional burden of holding and releasing the cat. When I’m the one holding them overnight, it’s harder to let go. Harder not to imagine them living safely indoors.

    But Zorro has his freedom. And now, he has a better chance at survival.

  • When Your Sewing Machine Turns on You

    Some days, quilting is peaceful. Not really, but I like to pretend. (Zazu likes to “help.” Zephyr needs all of my attention. And Zuri runs in and out of the craft room hissing at everyone.) Other days, your sewing machine decides to betray you in the middle of a project.

    I was sewing along on my QAYG (quilt as you go) quilt blocks that I’ve been working on for weeks. Everything was good. Or as good as can be when you’re me. Then, out of nowhere, I had a brilliant idea to see what would happen if I lowered the feed dogs.

    Now look, I’ve been using sewing machines off and on for my whole life. I know how to use them and what the different things do, but I’m in no way a professional. Also, I forget things very easily. Often. Always.

    Lowering the feed dogs did not do what I was hoping, so I raised them back up. And now my machine is broken. The thread is catching on that little arm that hangs out over the top of the bobbin case. I have removed all thread, removed the bobbin case, cleaned everything out, replaced everything, and it is still catching.

    I have another sewing machine. I love my other sewing machine. It’s my favorite. But it’s broken too. My daughter-in-law and I decided to take it apart one day to “fix it,” and now it just gives me an error message when I plug it in. I think I know what’s wrong with it, but fixing it is going to involve taking it apart again. So I bought this new machine instead! Yep… now I have two broken machines.

    And here’s the problem — this isn’t just any quilt. It’s a wedding gift for my son, and the wedding is in 62 days. Every block I finish is one step closer to getting it done on time, and every day I’m stuck without a working machine is a day I’m falling behind. Because I’m a stitchin’ hot mess. I’m sitting here with two broken sewing machines and a deadline breathing down my neck.

  • Cat Cult at Midnight

    Last night was… quiet. Too quiet.
    Usually, by the time I’m in bed, I’ve got the soundtrack of my life going—Zephyr thundering through the house, Zazu sprinting up the pole, Zuri hissing at someone for breathing wrong. But not this time.

    It was unnerving enough that I pulled up my living room camera to see what was going on.

    Zuri the black cat curled up in the hallway, blocking the entrance to Zephyr’s room.

    There was Zuri, curled up in front of the hallway like a furry bouncer, blocking the entrance to Zephyr’s room—the same room where he stayed for several weeks when he first arrived. It’s his safe space. Zuri won’t go in there herself, but she does like to guard the doorway.

    I got up to investigate. Lights on, a full sweep of Zephyr’s room—nothing. He wasn’t there. Neither was Zazu. I was halfway back to my bedroom when I saw it.

    Zazu and Zephyr perched on top of the kitchen cabinets, staring down.

    There they were. Perched together on top of the kitchen cabinets. Silent. Motionless. Glowing eyes fixed on me. A secret cat meeting? Late-night plotting session? I’ll never know.

    Meanwhile, Zuri was still on hallway patrol, looking very much like someone who didn’t get the invite. I almost felt bad for her—almost—but if she’d stop being such a diva, she might actually get included.

    With these three, silence is never a good sign.